Update: Oregon is where I am at.

Hey out there to all of my bloggin' friends...

I am here, but not really "here" at home, see Nana and Paps were on vacation with us and Nana's mom went in for a routine shoulder surgery on the 3rd of Sept in Oregon. We said our prayers for her and went on our way in Utah...

The next thing I remember is I was on a flight with my parents first thing Friday morning heading back into Portland with all kinds of things running through my head; wondering if Grandma was even going to "make it" till we got there. I was preparing myself for our "good-byes."

See, Grandma C. is 76 and bearley 113 pounds and her body just was under too much stress after the surgery and she was having blood clots starting to form in her body and after that, the rest went down hill. She was rushed into surgery AGAIN, where this time they placed some kind of umbrella to block the clots. Grandma's heart was racing and she was making no sense with gasping of air... ICU is where they were going to keep her.

SEE, that is why we were on our way to see her.

We got there and I was emotional doing OK, UNTIL I saw her in ICU laying in her bed. I went to kiss her hand and that is when the tears came. I didn't like seeing Grandma like that; with wires and tubes all over her; monitoring her every breath.

To make a LONG couple of nights and lots of emotions short, I am glad to say that I know there is a God and he does hear prayers and answers them!

As of today, she was out of the ICU and was up moving (very slowly) had a sponge bath and was even drinking some Dt. Pepsi. It looks like she is going to pull through; her journey in life is not quite over, she is still needed here. She may even get to go home sometime THIS week.

I know that death is a part of life and that there is life after death. I know that we will see our loved ones again after we are finished here on earth; but death is never easy, but knowing what I know does help in times of grief. I am grateful for the knowledge that I know. While Grandma was in ICU, I was walking in and I happened to see the nurses zipping up a body bag and wheeling the body out...NO ONE from it's family was with this person when it died. It really kinda shook my up and seeing Grandma in one of her episodes, I had to step out. I wasn't ready for that, but that is life; a part that I am not familiar with.

(also, in case or by chance anyone in the medical field may read this, Thank you for the hard work and time you spend dealing with the loved ones that we care about so much.

Thank you for your LONG hours you put in, for not giggling when you see bear bums, for your patience with the family members and making sure we are as comfortable as the patients, for you tender touch and warm blankets, not to forget the drugs to help the pain and the 24 hour non-stop care.

Thank you so much for all you do and it really does take a special person to deal with strangers and show love and care. You people are truly amazing!)

(NOW a note to the people who are the supplier for the chairs and bunches for the hospital...please think of the families and friends who stay many hours of the day at the hospital.

I can personal a test that they are not the finest in the land. I TRIED to sleep on the chairs and that was a joke. I tossed and turned; what we do for the ones we love! It is amazing what kind of things you can do to stay awake or entertained while stying in a hospital...be watching for photos.)

I am glad and lucky that I can be here for my Grandma and also my mom during this time. I know that I am scarifying time with my husband and kids, (Dan has all 4 of the kids by himself and I know just how hard that is, Thanks Dan for allowing me to be here.) but living out of state from my family, I needed to be here for my Grandma, but also myself. My Dad said, you never want to have regrets about life. So I know that this is where I need to be as of now.

I will keep you all posted...thanks for your prayers!